I had never really thought much about life or death before. But, thinking back on it, it’s a pretty interesting subject. Nobody will ever truly know what happens when somebody dies, because they can’t come back to life to share what does happen. What about reincarnation? I don’t believe in reincarnation, but if it does/did exist, what creatures have I been before? Or is this my first time on Earth? Even thinking about other planets and universes up in the sky somewhere. It’s just crazy to think about. There may be a billion different realities somewhere in every decision that we make.

And what about love? There are so many people in this world, so how is it that so many people find their true one love? I’m not saying that I don’t believe in love. In fact, I’m a romantic. Many of my friends can attest to that. Sometimes I get doubtful that I won’t meet my person. I have no idea what will happen then, but I guess we’ll see. Love truly is a beautiful thing, though. Even just the fact that animals can find their mate and us humans can find our people is amazing in itself. A lot of people that I meet say they’re not interested in love. I guess that does make sense, but high school shows a shift in people.

That brings me to another topic. Children. A lot of people say they don’t want children. I can understand that as well. Reality is strange. Society and human existence are strange. Just thinking that I can create another human inside of me leaves a bit of a shocking feeling in my stomach.

What is home? Well, home is different for everybody. It can represent different things for you, but a home for me is a place where you feel safe. A home is a place where you can represent your emotions in any situation. A home is a place, even if it isn’t a property, it’s a place that you make of it. It can be found in the craziest places. For me, home is being with my family and friends. Home is laughing and home is crying. Home is writing articles for the Voice of Frisco. What does your home represent to you?

Sometimes, all I want to do is cry. And bawl. And not do anything for a long period of time. Heck, even music and books can do that to people. I’m listening to slow music as I write this article, and it’s making me calmer, but also making me want to curl up. Sometimes, I wonder why I was created. Now, for those people out there that don’t believe in themselves or their life anymore, I can totally understand where that comes from. Here’s the thing that I had to realize, though: You won’t understand what your purpose is in this world until you make it for yourself. There are still those days where I don’t believe that. We’re all going to have those days. There’s a little sliver of hope in the darkness. It’s evident in the stars; it’s evident in the dark. There is light in love; there is light in life, and there is light in death. There’s light in the laugh of children.

There’s light all around you, all you have to do is let yourself see it.

Ok, ok. There will be people out there that don’t believe in anything I’m saying. Sometimes you feel so deep down in a hole of despair that you don’t want to believe in anything. Those feelings will pass. As I said, light is in everything. There is even light in the tears you cry.

Now, I know this article is way different than everything I’ve written in the past. I don’t really know if I’m going to publish this article or not. But if this article does get published, I think one of the best things about this article is that it is raw. It’s a peek into my head. It’s a chance to feel validated, or maybe it’s a chance for you to discover who you are or what you want to become. I know the Voice of Frisco publishes a lot of articles based on current news. I think that is good, but just like anything in life, sometimes you need a break. I hope to provide that to you. Please tell me in the comments section or leave me any advice on what you are really thinking about in this article. I understand any advice you have. This article is something out of my comfort zone, too. Throughout the past 4 months, I have learned a lot about self-discovery and caring for myself in the best way possible. Nobody has to be alone, though. If you feel alone, I’ll be there for you, too. I’ll be there.